"Nowhere can man find a quieter or more untroubled retreat than in his own soul."
Natan Sharansky was a Soviet dissident. In 1977 the KGB arrested him, accusing him of treason because he spoke out for human rights. They threw him in a gulag where spent nine years, including 405 days in a punishment cell. The cell was freezing and dark, and he was given barely any food.
Most men would go insane. Deprivation destroys the mind. But Sharansky didn't break. He retreated. As a child, he had been a chess prodigy. In the dark of his cell, he built a chessboard in his mind. He played thousands of games against himself with total focus. He remembered every move, and he analyzed every strategy.
The guards controlled his body, the lights, and the food, but they couldn't touch the chess game.
When he was finally released in 1986, he was still sharp, and eventually became a minister in the Israeli government. He even beat the world chess champion Garry Kasparov in a friendly match. He credited his survival to the freedom he found inside his own head.
Marcus Aurelius wrote about this same power. He was an emperor constantly at war, surrounded by plagues and politics. He wanted to get away to a vacation to the beach or the mountains. But he corrected himself. He realized that "retreats" to the country are for amateurs. You can travel to the quietest place on earth and still be miserable if your mind is noisy.
The only true retreat is the "Citadel of the Self." It's always open, and you don't need to book a flight. You just need to close your eyes. If your mind is ordered and your principles are solid, you can find total peace in the middle of a war zone.
Errors & Corrections
- Don't mistake geography for peace. We say, "I need a vacation," when we're stressed. You actually need a clearer mind. If you take an anxious mind to Hawaii you just have anxiety with a view. Fix the software, don't just change the hardware.
- Don't wait for "Quiet Time." Parents and busy workers often say they have no time for themselves. Marcus wrote this in a tent near a battlefield. The retreat takes seconds. Close your eyes, breathe, reset,and open your eyes. You just went to the Citadel.
- Don't furnish your room with trash. If you fill your mind with grudges and fear, you can't rest there. Sharansky filled his mind with chess and logic. You have to clean the house of your mind so it's a sanctuary and not a dump.
Applications to Modern Life
Work
The office is loud. Slack is pinging every ten seconds. Your boss is frantic. You feel the urge to run away or hide in the bathroom. Don't run. Practice the micro-retreat. Stop typing, take a breath, and remind yourself that you're in control of your own reason. The chaos is external. Your mind is internal. Then dive back in. You become the calm eye of the storm.
Leadership
A leader who panics spreads panic. When the crisis hits, the team looks at you. If you're frantic, they're frantic. A Stoic leader retreats to the Citadel for a moment. They find the logic, then they speak. Your "untroubled retreat" becomes the anchor for the entire organization.
Athleticism & Sport
The crowd is screaming. The pressure is on. The athlete who focuses on the noise chokes. The athlete who visits the Citadel hears nothing. They visualize the rep, and feel the muscle. They're alone in a stadium of 50,000 people. That isolation is their power.
Politics
The news cycle is designed to invade your Citadel. It wants to occupy your mind with outrage 24/7. To be a free citizen, you must evict the squatters. Turn off the news and read a book from 200 years ago. Reclaim the territory of your own thoughts.
Social Media
Every notification is a knock on your door. "Look at this." "Be angry at this." If you answer every knock, you live in a hallway and not a home. Close the door. Put the phone in another room. Defend the perimeter of your attention.
Interpersonal Relationships
When you argue with a partner, you often say things you regret. You react to the heat of the moment. The Citadel allows you to take a "time out" without leaving the room. Go inside. Ask if this is helpful. Ask if you love this person. Then speak. The delay saves the relationship.
Maxims
- The mind is its own place.
- Clean the house before you rest.
- Peace is a skill.
In-depth Concepts
Euzein (Living Well)
Marcus often uses the term Euzein to describe the goal of the retreat. It isn't just "feeling good." It's functioning well. You retreat to the soul to repair your principles so you can return to the world and act with virtue. It's a pit stop, not retirement.
Hegemonikon (The Ruling Faculty)
The Citadel is another name for the Hegemonikon. It's the command center. If the walls are strong and the commander is wise, no external enemy can breach it.